Created on Friday, 16 March 2012 15:09 Published Date Hits: 4777
Editor’s Note: This poem by Pete Tolton was the winning entry in the finals of the third annual Billings Grand Slam, a poetry slam held last month at Venture Theatre. Mr. Tolton and Anna Paige were finalists in the competition.
We fired up the chainsaw last month
Blades rotate fast enough
To make a slip and fall matter
Lost my partner in crime
No sirens, nothing but fresh ruts
Now I set the table for one
Buckets under the drips
Light bulbs need replacing
Paths in the hardwoods from back and forth pacing
Tattered collars and cuffs
Moths slowly defacing
Clutch a ragged afghan
My fingers and toes poke through
It’s been the same setting
On the radio dial
The same coffee water
Twice brewed grounds
Stuck in my teeth
I tongue my canines, anticipating
The night when I’m at one with the night
Keep quiet, I chew
Keep quiet
I roll darkness’s grit against the roof of my mouth
The taste of soot and tar and
Scab and burn and mold
And heartless hole
And bones and urn
This is the relative safety of commiseration
Inward and inward I strike my path
Through the tunnels of my innards
And through the plaster and lath
It makes me wonder
What kept bits of bone
Out of the mortar?
What kept blood out of the bricks
When those homesteaders built it?
I am, ever slowly, sinking I’m thinking
A quicksand house underneath and now around me
I whisper aloud,
If there weren’t bones and blood
In here before
There sure as hell are now.
My teeth at one with the porcelain fixtures
Flesh stretches, covering wallpaper
Spine fuses with the crippled frame
That support beam used to be L3-L4
I am the place where we were
And I’ve locked the doors
We’ve all heard that
Home is where the heart is
Goddamn it I cannot differ
I get stiffer and stiffer and stiffer
Now I wear these gable shingles
Held askew like jaunty cap
Drooping off the side of my brow
If there weren’t bones and blood
In there before
There sure as hell are now.
Yeah,
If there weren’t bones and blood
In here before
There sure as hell are now.